hopeless life......

wat's wrong wit my mood??it's gonna worse til like a shit!! I HATE IT!!!

i wan mad adi la...there are too many things that i cant tel others abt tat...wat i can do is juz run away frm the reality....mayb you are right...it may be solved so easily....but have u ever know how i feel towards this issue??can u sense that i m living wit the feel of guilty evy minute evy second...

i noe you are suffering as well...i m reli trying my best to cheer u up adi...try to control my emo in front of you..try to look like nothing happen...i oni can cry out all the unhapiness wen evyone is sleeping...den the nxt day i nid to pretend like nothing happen again...this is my punishment, so i will accept it...i noe i m not qualify to say anything abt dis...cos somebody is more suffer than me...but i m reli reli vy helpless now....

wat i nid is ur consideration and ur console...b4 u make dis decision, i thk u adi noe all of dis will happen...dont u thk so?? den why wen the thing is reli happen, u cnt stand beside me and face it together wit me but juz put me in a more complicated situation??let me face all the pro alone...cry..i noe you are unhapi wit all of this as well...trying to "bao rong" me...try to treat it as nothing happen oso...but.......i reli nid ur support in this moment...

i reli hate myself.....life is so meaningless....wat's the actual point i still here??God...can u pls bring my unhapiness away??if u cnt do tat, den can u juz make me disappear frm this earth??or giv me a pair of wings...let me fly to a place that dun hv other ppl...juz leave me alone at thr...izit too greedy for me to request so??i m tired wit my life....